Last month as I was on my way to school I read the news that Vicky Beeching came out as a lesbian. She said that it was something she knew for a very long time, since she was 13. It was actually quite accidental that I came across this piece of news. I was listening to one of her songs ‘Extravagant Worship’ and I wanted to check the lyrics out because I couldn’t make up a part in the verse. I googled her name instead of the song title and the news of her coming out was all over the place.
I was not shocked. Being gay and Christian myself, I’ve always been amused by gay people coming out the closet. I’ve personally wondered when I could come out to the general public although my parents, family and close friends know that I’m gay, but coming out can be such a burden at times especially when you make new friends whom you really like to hang with.
In the process of reading her coming out process I also read the criticisms flung at her for being gay and Christian. Some of them sounded like that her being gay and Christian should never have happened. They couldn’t understand how an amazing Christian artist, who has written Spirit-filled anointed worship music ever be gay!
Being a leader is not doing what people want you to do. It’s about doing what’s right even when people, including friends get hurt. When you make decisions and friends leave you, then you’ll know who’s really got your back.
Make me feel as thou hast felt;
Make my soul to glow and melt
With the love of Christ our Lord. - Stabat Mater
What went through her mind every time she went to Jerusalem with Jesus and Joseph for the Passover? Did she feel the sword go through her heart each time she saw the lamb of sacrifice being slaughtered by the High Priest? Did Jesus ask her what it meant when the angel Gabriel said that he would die for the sins of the nation?
Why do we Catholics honour Mary? Simply because she is the best example of obedience that we see beside Jesus. Not all things were revealed to her, not many things are said of her but we do know she stood by Jesus in everything. She saw him grow up before her eyes and saw him die before her eyes.
Today, at every cross she stands, giving the same spiritual consolation she gave her son. She understands what it means to be so near to God and yet live in confusion of what God wants us to do. She shared in the cross of Jesus so perfectly, despite her sorrow, still loving. That’s something we must learn too, in the midst of sorrow, do we curse or do we stand by God even when we don’t understand what’s going on?
Mater Dolorossa, ora pro nobis.